So I actually went on facebook again today since my second cuz added me. Although I'm not on dA too much, I'm on facebook even less. This is because I get sort of sad when I go on facebook and here's why:

Where to start...... Have you ever had a friend in life that you just slowly drifted apart from? And you, yourself, tried to stop this from happening but your 'friend' just didn't seem to want to put effort in keeping contact and so you both eventually drifted so far apart, it's not even funny?

This is sort of how I feel every time I see her pic or whatever on facebook. She was an old friend that I had in middle school and I moved away so we wrote letters to each other. She's probably the only friend out of all my friends that actually kept up with writing letters so it made me really happy. But eventually, the time it took her to reply grew longer, and longer, and longer until she just didn't reply anymore.
And now you might ask about email and AIM. I've also emailed her from time to time but the same thing happened as the snail mail letters. Slowly, the replies took longer and longer until there were no replies. And with AIM, I don't have that and I wouldn't know if it was her brother or her on there. We eventually didn't use that also because she was never on it.

And so now to the present, I go on facebook, and she has a different email. I wonder why she wouldn't send me her new email for update since I can't contact with her using the old email. Every time I update my email, I at least have the courtesy to let people I know, know about the email change. I go on her facebook and write a note saying "hello, how are you?" but I never, ever get a reply back.
Small things like this are just really frustrating and make me wonder if she even cares that I'm her friend anymore. It's sad. I mean, we WERE really close friends.

And then I see pictures of her and whoever else is physically with her and think to myself what our friendship would be like if I never moved. Sometimes, I just feel like giving up on trying to keep contact with her because it's like a lost cause. She just doesn't seem to care that I'm trying to keep contact or whatever and makes it seem like I don't really exist.

Yeah, it's sort of that pathetic, neglected, left out feeling. Maybe I shouldn't have friend-ded her on facebook. Sadly, her presence there is just a sad reminder for me.

Anyway, sorry to whoever reads this for all the angst. If you've ever had a 'friend' like this, you'd probably understand where I'm getting at. I just had to write it out since it makes me feel at least a little better. u.u